I hope every single girl out there,
Would feel much happier about their lives,
Knowing that they contributed to the nightmares of my life.

And all this pain,
Is making me contemplate suicide.
I just want a special someone to pull me up when I'm down,
Someone I can hug when I'm sad,
Someone I can call mine.

What's wrong with me?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
At least tell me so I can change.
Not just reject me without giving me a chance.

Why not give me a fighting chance,
Instead of not giving a slight chance at all?

I really feel miserable now.
I feel terrible and I just want to be left alone now.

Don't mock me.
I will never love a girl ever again. Not anymore.

J.

No one would fall for me.
Because I am no one.
I'm just the guy who makes notes,
The nice guy that no one will ever like.

Today, 6th March 2012.
Everything changes.
No longer will I chase girls anymore.
JAKE TAN JUN KANG.
YOU WILL NOT BE HURT ANYMORE FROM TODAY ONWARDS!
YOU WILL BE STRONG
YOU WILL BE RICH
YOU WILL BE THE PERFECT MAN IN EVERY WOMAN'S DREAM
AND YOU WILL GET BACK AT EVERY SINGLE WOMAN OUT THERE THAT HAS REJECTED YOU.

This blog will be left as it is, as a momentum for me to forever remind me, Jake Tan Jun Kang, that I will never allow myself to be hurt by a woman ever again.

From today onwards, 6th March 2012, I will seize to exist and a new Jake will be born.
Jake, remember. Never to be hurt by any woman ever again. Remember the pain and embrace it.

J. 

It's about time I gave up.
She's looking for feel.
She didn't have that feel for me.

J.

We didn't text for the entire day.
Then you told us to text on twitter.
You texted, I replied.
Then you disappeared. Is it really hard to just give me a reply?

Why do you wanna make me happy, just so you can make me sad?
Do you know how much you're hurting me?

I don't know what I want anymore.
I can't trust someone that takes an hour to communicate.
I can't trust someone who won't make time for me.
I can't trust someone who won't put me first.

But it's been so long,
since someone has made me feel this way.
I don't think it's something you realize you do.
And you were never mine to begin with.

We can't be together, can't really be friends, can't really be lovers, and we can't pretend. 

J.

I can't deal with it.
I can't deal with the fact I have to wait an hour on average, for your reply.


Does she know? I don't think so.
Maybe she can't tell I really really like her.

I can't stand the fact you can't have a certain answer to where I stand in your heart.
I want to be more than just a friend.
I'm losing my grip on reality.

Yeah, maybe cause you really are out of my league.
You're so nice, caring, awesome, so perfect.

So what if your promises are fake?
I have never believed in promises anyway.
So why am I so affected by this?

Maybe I should have given up on that day.
And I'm singing my blues,
And I hope you can see,
I'm losing my grip on you.

So I have lost my way into this Blue.

J.

Because I know we will never be together.
No matter how many patches I patch,
No matter how much I change,

I'll still be a Pirate,
And You'll still be a Princess.

You deserve someone better.


Part of my heart wants me to be rejected because I'm not worthy.
Part of my heart tells me I'm falling for her.

So someone please stop me, from falling for this girl.
I don't wanna go have to through Love again, because it always hurts.
It's hard to look away, when you say the things that you say.
I try to be so cold, but you melt the chills away.

J.